DevilDriver & After The Burial concert

Hey you guys, here are some pics that I've taken of my fav bands. This was at The Observatory in Santa Ana. Hope you enjoy! :)

DevilDriver

 

After The Burial

 

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Intuition: Death Is Only The Beginning...

Happy Halloween everyone! Hope you all are doing well. :)

Whoever came up with the expression or said, "Death is only the beginning..." was right, it truly is. There are far more bigger and better things beyond this physical plane that we can see, feel or even comprehend.

With that being said, A family member of mine died not too long ago. And unlike most times how I would usually either not be able to sleep, I'll toss & turn all night or I'll feel something emotional like extreme sadness for no apparent reason as far as the day they died. But this time around nothing of the like happened, which is a bit surprising to me. What does that mean? Well I believe like many in their lifetime, I evolving, just rolling with the punches and not giving a care in the world! I guess it could be a good thing, I mean I feel like my gifts are getting better and becoming  more accurate in my readings that I do, you know. That "gut feeling" is definitely getting stronger and predominately more accurate too.

For instance when I think about someone or even something now, they'll/it'll either show up, call me or I'll hear from them shortly after thinking about them within the day. As to before I would usually hear from them the next day or so. Just a lot of crazy things have been happening, however to name them all, it'll take forever but here are some instances.

One night as I was laying down on my couch watching a movie, then all of a sudden I get this sharp pain in my chest. I felt my heart strain as if I was about to get a heart attack. Mind you I'm a pretty healthy person and I'm far too young to even have one anyway (not to toot my own horn). This went on a couple more times then as fast as it came, it stopped.

I will admit I was a bit scared and preoccupied as to why this happened to me. I mean wouldn't you if this were to happen to you?  Early the very next morning a good friend of mine who's like a brother to me, he texts me saying his dad was in the hospital and that he had a heart attack the previous night. Oh my god what the hell, right! Pretty crazy if you ask me. I was totally vibing with what my friend's dad was feeling. Low key I'm not too surprised in the fact that I felt what he felt during his heart attack because I do see my friend's dad as family like another uncle of mine so to speak. But now he is doing well, he cheated death and was given another chance to live life to the fullest.


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Premonitions

"What's up guys?! I doing well, Thank you. I know it's has a kool minute since I've been on here but with that I have my reasons. I had some technical difficulties with my computer. And I had no way of writing or publishing anything. But now I'm "Back with a Vengeance!" Lol! So everything is sorted out and I should be back and up & running this site as usual! Thanks for understanding..."

                                                                                         \,,/, -Bobbi  R. KnaiveЯ




On a lighter note...

 What is Premonition?

1) A feeling of anticipation of or anxiety over a future event; presentiment

2)  An intuition of the future usually unwelcome, occurrence; foreboding

3) An early warning of a future event, forewarning

Premonitions are very much like Déjà vu however it happens to you when you are wide awake and will occur at anytime. You can say that they are visions, in other words.

I have had quite a handful of premonitions in my day however only a certain handful tend to stick out. This one in particular that comes to me is when someone I really cared about, up & left out of the blue up and fell off the face of the earth! I had no idea what happened to him or where he had gone despite what his friends had told me. I was obviously bummed out that my friend didn't tell me that he was leaving. Sure, I am no one for him to say what he should or shouldn't do but you would think that since we  were good friends, he would have mentioned something. C'mon guys he was like family to me.

So he left and some time passes on. The saying "Out of sight, Out of mind..." holds true because I truly did not think of him much, I was too preoccupied with my schooling and other things at the time. I mean seriously guys, wouldn't you keep yourself busy with anything and everything to not think about something that was so painful to you?

Anyway, then on one random day I believe my mom had to work late and she couldn't pick up my brothers and I from school, so we had to take the bus home. Oh my god it was usually a long and dreaded journey home when taking the bus. Don't get me wrong, yes it's a great means to go to and from places when you do not have the luxury of owning your own car at the ripe young age of 17. However, I kid you not it would take us like an hour and a half just to get home, where in the car it would only take about 15 minutes! Ugh, I'm so glad I didn't have to do it for very long while attending high school.

The school bell finally rings for us to go home! I tell you it can be one of the most enjoyable sounds to a kid, hahaha. So we all make our way out, through the gates where I meet up with my brothers so that we all can go home together. The bus stop was a couple of blocks away from school and it didn't take much time for us to walk to it and wait for the bus.

Dude, it was a hot day. It was Africa hot as I like to say because it was unbearable, to me at least. For those of you who personally know me know I hate the heat and I burn easily too because of my pale skin. What was five freakin' minutes outside, walking in the heat, felt like an eternity! The sun just blazing down on your face ugh, the worst fuckin feeling when you don't have the urge to do anything and it also drains the life out of you too. I believe we didn't spend very much time waiting for the bus to arrive. I think it took us longer for us walk to the bus stop then it was to actually wait for the bus to come.

It was a pretty gnarly hot day so when we got inside the air conditioned bus, we pretty much disintegrated into the cold air. Yes at last I said to myself all the while trying to relax a bit to our way home. As I'm relaxing, I let my mind race and I start to daydream of whatever I was thinking earlier in the day. Then all of a sudden I get this random thought/vision of a boy walking with some greenery in the background and he was wearing a jersey type shirt with a blue baseball hat. I really couldn't see his face, it was a bit blurry but other then that he was light skinned as well. As fast as it came, it went and I didn't think much of it because I was daydreaming and not much from that comes true when you daydream, right?!

Well the very next day I was with one of my friends and we were heading out of school. We were walking up the ramp and I wasn't really paying much attention to where I was going. I was sanding one of my projects in my hand, that I had to finish for my plastics class when all of a sudden I get this like weird eerie feeling in my gut that I should look up. I look up to see what's in front of me and low and behold I see that guy that I daydreamed about the day before! He was walking down the ramp wearing exactly what I saw in my vision, a jersey shirt with a blue baseball hat.

But the really trippy part of the vision was that the guy who I saw in my vision was my friend who had left. He just looked really different to me now. I guess it had been so long since I've seen or heard from him that I was kind of forgetting how he looked like. I couldn't believe he was actually in the same vicinity as me let alone at my school, I was in complete awe. What the fuck....not that I was complaining or anything but yea he looked well and happy I guess. It was nice to see he was alive and doing OK. I just saw he very briefly walking to wherever he was going to without saying a damn word to him but I guess, "some things are best just left unsaid..." .  And that was the last time I saw him for good. No worries there are no ill feelings, I wish him nothing but the best...

Blessed Be! :)

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The Raffle

Wow! What?! I kid you not this is probably the sixth dream (ironically) I have had this year about the band and members of DevilDriver. Dude, what the Fuck is up? Something is going down...

This is going to be short and sweet like always. It seems that I was at a grocery store or something of the like. It's some type of business with many monitors and cashiers, so I figure it's the grocery store. Walmart comes to mind for no particular reason, it just does. We're there just chilling inside the building towards the entrance, within a check stand just conversing and reminiscing on some funny events that had happened a couple days before. I couldn't tell you in detail on what we were laughing at because this dream was so quick and vague, I woke up and was in utter disbelief of why I am dreaming about them again!

There were some people there that seemed to know the guys pretty well. Their' faces look very familiar to me it's just I'm not too sure where I've seen them before. I think was the only woman who was there in the group. Not that I'm complaining, am put off a little bit. For the most part of our time there, I was just talking with John for a kool minute. I got an overwhelming feeling of 'finally'. I'm guessing "finally" I'm getting to really know who and how he is as a person outside of the public eye which was nice to see, you know.

Now, what gets me is why the hell would you do a free giveaway and/or raffle at a grocery store? Beats me however that's exactly what happened. I guess we were just waiting for some time to pass to announce who the winner of the raffle was going to be. There weren't that many people to begin with for this raffle. At most there were about eight people along with us just waiting to see who's name was going to be called out. I'm not to sure what they were raffling off. I think it was a combo of the new album and something else. All I know that it was pretty awesome if I do say so myself.

The winner's name was displayed over the monitors throughout the store. It was a young, little blond-haired girl who won. She was overjoyed to say the least. She then hugged the guys and took a picture with them. And that's pretty much all she wrote folks. This is where the dream ends.

'Til next time, Blessed Be!

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This Suicide

 

Hey guys! I know it has been awhile that I've been on here. A lot of shit has come up that has kept this pretty lady very, very busy!

For the time that I have been away from here, I've noticed that a certain someone and a reoccurring subject/topic would unmistakably pop up out of no where. It has only been these past few months or so that I would see this subject and that happens to be Suicide, hence. I know it's some morbid and dark stuff to be thinking about but it happened. I believe there is a reason for this as well.
 

This is kind of near and dear to heart so to speak. Reminiscing back, many moons ago when I was 14 years old my best friend who is like a sister to me, her brother committed suicide at a young age. He wasn't even a teenager when the deed was done. Yes, that is some pretty heavy shit to be thinking about for anyone especially for a little boy such as my friend's brother. I remember the few months before leading to his death, I too had those dark thoughts of my own. However now I know looking back, the feelings that I was feeling were not entirely all of my own.

For some of you that don't know already, I have "gifts".  Just imagine yourself being empathetic towards someone, (more likely involuntarily in my case) but that it is turned up way high. It's where you can literally feel what another person is feeling or sensing without them telling you what exactly is going on with them and they could be hundreds of miles away from you too. It's called being an Intuitive Empath. As I've aged I have also noticed that when I would have some 'sad' thoughts or feelings, shortly after I would find out why. You can say that this was the start.

 

So here I am, I was a young teenager going through puberty, feeling shitty about myself and the motives of others. Not knowing who to trust or who to believe for any matter, everyone was ambiguous to me. You can say that these were probably the worst years of my childhood. I felt like I had no friends but just people that I would talk to during recess and lunch just to get through the day at school. I was constantly bored out of my mind and I could barely concentrate. I desperately wanted to fit in but felt I wasn't accepted amongst my peers or society. 

I know sounds like what your everyday teenager goes through but it was more then just that. Finding yourself and a place in life is not an easy thing for anyone. I felt like I was worthless, a burden to others and my self-esteem was extremely low. I constantly cried myself to sleep hoping the next day would be better. Regularly I'd think if I were to do it, I was doing my family, friends and society a favor of removing myself from the world.

Now these contemplations ran for a few months and then all of a sudden it completely stopped. I was normal like the actual me again, if that makes any sense. I was back to being that bubbly, charismatic and funny person like I have always been. Things tended to look up for me at that point. Also at that time my friend and I were becoming closer then ever. Back then before when kids had cell phones at school, I kid you not they were the size of a brick, my friend had her own home phone in her room. We would literally talk for hours about nothing and still have a good time.

I remember this one particular day I called her and her brother had answered the phone. I was taken aback that it was him because she would usually answer it once it ranged. As soon as we started talking, I got an overwhelming feeling in my gut that something was wrong and that this would be the 'last' time that I am going to talk to him. I was bewildered and aghast as to why I was feeling this way. So I just brushed it off as nothing and asked if I can talk to my friend. I didn't tell her what I felt because it disturbed me and I didn't want to alarm her either.

You also have to take into consideration that I was barely learning how to use my gifts at the time. Not saying that it's any easier now, I am still learning, I learn new things everyday however at least  now I can differentiate what feelings are entirely my own and I am likely to find things out right away as to why I was feeling a certain way if they weren't my feelings.

The next morning when I went to school, it was announced to everyone there that my friend's brother had committed suicide. Different kinds of emotions ran through me that day. But the one that primarily stuck was the guilt. What if I had told someone or my friend what I felt was wrong with him, maybe things could have changed and he could have gotten the help that he needed. All sorts of what-if questions popped up in my mind but that didn't matter, fact was that he was no longer with us physically. He was going through beyond, a tough time and all the while I was precisely sensing what he had gone through unbeknownst to me.
 

Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. If you try to commit suicide and it is successful, you will Reincarnate immediately into a lesser life. In this case it means you'll come back and have to go through the same karmic entanglements all over again except this time it will be twice as hard if not even harder. Everything that happens in life is just a problem to be solved and there is always a way through no matter how hard life becomes. Taking what seems the easy way out, will only in the long run will make it harder on you. Until you break through the problems you have and learn and move forward you will keep on repeating the same lessons over and over until you do.

He definitely visits me, I can sense him sometimes though it's not as strong as I would like or he'll visit me in my dreams and leaves me messages every once in awhile. I guess this is a strange way to commemorate him. I hope he knows that he is missed and surely isn't forgotten, at least not by me anyway. Blessed be...

If you or someone you know is thinking about suicide, PLEASE seek professional help and take the time to call the Suicide Prevention Hotlines (US) at 1 800 784-2433 (SUICIDE) or 1 800 273-8255 (TALK). For helplines outside the U.S., check out Befrienders Worldwide.

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Sidenote: Mike

What's up you guys, how ya doing?!

Fuck me, am really dumbfounded right now! As many of you know the obvious, DevilDriver is one of my favorite bands. With that being said last night I dreamt about one of their guitarists, Mike Spreitzer. I am a bit perplexed as to why I am dreaming about him so much for these past few months. Low key it's getting on my last nerve though. Don't get me wrong I have nothing against this comely man, I have thee utmost reverence for him. It's just that it can get a bit irritating to say none the less when all you seem to do is dream about the same person all the time when you try to recall. Obviously it's not a bad thing though, however I would like to know about other stuff for instance like what is going to happen to me and my loved ones. Something is definitely up with him. It's only a matter of time before I will find out. Usually by "the grace of  god" shit tends to fall on my lap, so to speak. It's the inevitable sometimes...


I don't know, I find it kind of ironic that I dreamt about Mike considering we just had a summer solstice and that tonight we will have a "Super Moon". It's a full moon in which it will be the largest we've had this year and it'll be the closest encounter with earth in a very long time. In other words the moon is going to appear huge probably bigger then you've ever seen in a cool minute and you may to start to notice that people you know and around you will be even crazier if you haven't noticed already. You have no idea how much the moon, let alone the full moon affects us. For example the moon causes many of the tides on earth's oceans due to the gravity force between the earth and moon. Another example is the female menstrual cycle has been linked to the full phases of the moon. The moon has some adverse affects on us especially the full moon, the list goes on and on.

This full moon will be a great time to do spells. Particularly any protection spells, self cleanses and any cleaning of precious gems and stones. Now onto the dream that I had. I only remember a small amount of this dream however like always I am going to keep this short and sweet.

It was mid afternoon, the sun was shining bright and it wasn't too hot either. It was decent to be out and about outside for the most part. I was at this really dirty house, it seemed like it had been abandoned and dilapidated for quite awhile. I was there with a group of people to which I had no recollection as to who they were but I was helping them out by moving boxes in and out of the house and onto a hauling truck because they were moving to a bigger and better house.

As I'm was transporting boxes from one point to another, to my surprise I see yours truly, Mr. Mike Spreitzer. He seemed to be the one that was coordinating everything on what was going on at the house. He too was taken aback that he saw me there helping out and then proceeds asks me how I was doing and how my guitar playing was coming along. You know the usually small talk. I replied, like the smart ass that I am, I said 'Oh everything is going pretty well but just that I'm not where I want to be. You know, you say that when you suck, right? How's your guitar playing coming along? You know what they say, Those that can't, TEACH! hahaha'. He and I chuckle and then he quickly changes the subject by listing different things he would teach his guitar students like chords, pentatonic scales, etc. to see where exactly I was. Then he says to send him a video of my playing. I don't remember much of this conversation but then he says that we should get together and set up a few lessons so he can show me some more guitar stuff. The conversation was very brief and we continued to finish packing up boxes and loading them into the rented hauling truck.

That's pretty much all folks. Talk about a short lived dream to say the least. Anyways take care of yourselves, enjoy the benefits of this full moon to come and Blessed be! :)



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Just putting it out there...

What's up suckas?! Hahaha...

I know it has been a cool minute but a bitch has been hella busy. I just wanted to give you guys some updates of what I've written in the past. This is going to be short and sweet.

 In Strange Occurrences I mentioned that someone who I would constantly talk to in a daily basis, all of a sudden they stopped talking to me. Well about a month after mercury retrograde ended, I get a text message from that very same person saying that they hope I'm doing well and that we should hang out soon. Oh my god, I told you that A) They're going to come back to you and B) that they're going to act as if nothing "wrong" ever happened. That's precisely what they did! Ugh, don't mean to gloat but I was right! Yes we still talk and hangout however not like before all this nonsense went down. They are now the one' that is putting forth the need to get in contact with me. Which is pretty awesome if I do say so myself, I am so done with putting in the effort to communicate. Ewwwe, now I'm just waiting for what June entails...

Mercury retrograde is approaching shortly so keep an eye out on what you say and do. Starting tomorrow (June 10), we shall start to feel some of the affects it has on us. It won't be as strong as if  we're actually in retrograde but please still be very careful!

(Lilac- Pre-Retrograde, Blue- Retrograde, Purple- Post Retrograde)

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Airplanes

 Ewwwe. One thing in life that scares the shit out of me would be airplanes. Being way up high in the air, all the more while putting your control and trust into the hands of another and traveling at ungodly speeds in sheer nothingness is pretty fucking scary if you ask me.

Oh chills run down my spine and I get goosebumps just thinking about it. Ugh, anyways...

This dream I had awhile back was nonetheless about airplanes. However it was like a scene straight off of 'Revelations' or something. Check it out, it's in the bibble, I mean bible. C'mon that was pretty funny, laugh out loud! (Tamayto, toemato hahaha.)

I was with some of my friends out in the middle of nowhere, just lounging 'round and relaxing for the weekend. We had been working non stop on some project and it was some much needed r and r. It was beautiful outside with lush and velvety lime green grass and the trees were everywhere you looked. Just across the yard from where we were standing, there was an old brick or stone two-story cottage. It was white and black with windows all around it too. You can tell that the building was really old, it's roof was made out of either shrubbery, straw, hay or even some random clusters of arbors. Who the fuck knows! It was it was in shambles and ready to fall to pieces yet safe to be in, if that any makes sense.

It's the late afternoon and we were just about finished eating our lunch when all of a sudden we hear what sounded like a giant explosion of some kind. We go outside to see what had happened and we saw that an airplane had just crashed a few hundred feet away. I guess you can say we were pretty lucky that it didn't land on us. Shortly after I'd say about a minute or two after we heard the first crash, we saw that there were some more airplanes that flew over and near us. They too just started to catch on fire, slowly descend from the sky and crash all around us.



 



The cottage that we were staying in, was at the bottom of a hill. As we tried to make our way upwards to avoid the planes from crashing into us and all of a sudden a giant cluster of them was headed our way. Apparently we were in 'their' path. Then more and more airplanes keep coming and crashing all around us it was like a freaking maze just to escape from the area we were in. We had to calculate where these airplanes where going to land so that way we wouldn't get hurt or even die. I'm surprised we didn't get trapped by them either. Oh it was a horrible dream to say the least guys. The screams and cries of the people in the planes when they were descending was sheer horror and deafening.

And that's where it ends. Having us run for our lives just trying to survive an apocalyptic event such as this. Seems like we just barely made it...

You can say that yes it was only a dream however something similar like this has happened to me in real life, a few years ago. I had planned a trip to go to O'ahu, Hawaii to visit my sisters and family.

It was a couple of days before I was to start my vacation and make my way to the very beautiful Hawaii. At the time I was working the graveyard shift. I gotten off work early that morning so I kept myself up for a bit, that way I would be able to get some decent sleep before I started my shift later on that night. It was the late afternoon when I went to bed around 4 o'clock. I was somewhat half awake, on the verge of knocking out when I hear a VROOM sound coming outside my bedroom window. I kid you not it sounded like an airplane was about to crash on me. I heard it descending and spiralling down out of control within seconds but there was no boom or landing noise. It was so loud that I literally jump out of bed to see if there was an actual airplane coming down on us.

Thank the universe that it wasn't about to crash on me! I don't know why I heard that noise. Yes, so I was half asleep but I was not dreaming. That I know for a fact because I could hear my neighbors talking amongst themselves in the background as I attempted to knock out. When I looked out the window, they didn't move at all. They were hanging out and minding their own business. Pretty strange right! Seems a bit convenient that I heard this just before I was going on my trip and that it was my first time ever boarding an airplane and yes I was extremely nervous too. I believe that something for sure, was fucking with my sensories and emotions. I'm thankful that it was a one time thing and that it will never happen again, SO MOTE IT BE.



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The Swarm

It's of no surprise that I've been having some real weird dreams lately. Some of them have came true and other have not (yet). A few days ago I had a couple of interesting dreams. Some of my lovelies Jeff and Mike (laugh out loud) and then shortly followed by a nightmare...

I'm not too sure if these dreams are from the past, if they're going to happen in the future or just that, dreams. The first dream I had was of Jeff. We were at some house, I didn't recognize it at all. It was big and spacious. It had a high celling, the whole room was painted white. So I'm just there hanging out with Jeff, am not to sure for what exactly or why we were there. More then likely either they were rehearsing for an upcoming tour or recording for an album of some sorts. He had an electric guitar strapped to him and then asks me to look at his back, primarily his shoulders. For some reason the right one was lower then the left side and it looked a bit odd too. Jeff had been complaining that they had been hurting since the morning. He then tells me to touch it and see if I feel any knots or something. My dear lord, it was fuckin' bumpy on that right shoulder. I don't know how he could have stand the pain. Not only did he have numerous knots but I think he may have even dislocated his shoulder. I proceeded by saying he needed to go get a massage to remove them (lord knows I'd do it!haha) and to go see a chiropractor to get align because it didn't look normal obviously.

I know a pretty boring dream but like anything I think he should go see the doctor for that shit. It may even help him and it wouldn't hurt either. Who knows I may have even helped him in preventing a serious injury to his shoulder. He should be very cautious of what he does with his arms because not too long after I dream of you with an injury some shit happens. But don't take my word for it...

Now, onto the next. My dream of Mike was funny (to me at least). I too, was hanging out with him however we were at his parents house. I got the feeling he either just moved back with them or has been living with them for some time unwillingly. We were heading towards the kitchen about to have lunch with his mom and brothers. We're about to be seated at the table and  I notice that you can fit about six people. The kitchen was small for the size of table his mom had in there.

When we sat down, Mike came in the kitchen in a white or light colored bathrobe with his hair down and wet. I guess he must have taken a quick shower. One of his brother teased him by saying he's always the last one to show up at the dinner table. We all laughed but Mike was irked at something. He retorted saying that he wasn't this time, as we were all waiting for his other brother to show up. In the dream I got the sense that he's the baby of his siblings and has at least two older brothers. Finally his brother comes over and that's where they both start to argue about over something real stupid. I remember saying to myself, 'can't believe you guys are fighting over this shit'. The brother, Mike is arguing with looks alot like him but just Mike is younger and has smoother skin. Though his brother's hair is long too but not quite as long as Mike's. It's definitely longer then the average.

Anyways they continue to go back and forth just complaining about shit. Then all of a sudden Mike's girlfriend walks into the kitchen to say hi to everyone. Oh my god she was pretty. Tall, thin and with blond hair, I kind you not she looked like one of those Victoria Secret supermodels (like Kate Upton)! Yea she  was that pretty, laugh out loud. As soon as she walked in his whole demeanor just changed. He was mostly fixated in her every movement that she made. Where ever she moved so would his head. His brothers again teased Mike, this time saying it was only puppy love and that they were surprised he could 'get that'. Apparently he's the ugly duckling (not true) of the family.  We all laughed including his mom however I don't think Mike heard this. As his eyes were too preoccupied with what his girlfriend was doing. When she left, so did he. He just got up and followed her every move in a way on how a giddy little school girl would be when she saw her crush, it was funny.

Again, I know it's a pretty boring dream and not that funny. But like I've said it was to me, it's funny how "the tables have turned" so to speak. I don't mean to be presumptuous or anything however, I don't see him being with the girl that he's with now for very long. She may just end up leaving him for someone else and for good this time...

Now shortly after these wonderful dreams, I guess you can say I reminisced through my sleep on a past horrific event that happened to me when I was younger. Many weird and traumatic things happened to my family and I not too long after we moved into our house when I was about 11 years old.

My brothers and had just gone to bed. We had just fallen asleep, when I heard a faint buzzing in the room. I thought to myself, 'great we have a mosquito in the room, hopefully it doesn't bite me'. It kept on flying around my room for a few minutes then it suddenly stopped. 

Sweet right, it probably left the room and now I can finally get some sleep. But oh to my horror that was just the fuckin' calm before the storm. Shortly after the noise coming from the mosquito, I hear a crescendo of bugs coming from what sounded like they were coming from the wall and the corner of my bed to which they were heading towards all over my brother's and my body. There were hundreds if not thousands of spiders and cockroaches all over us, coming from an unknown source. I of course started to panic uncontrollably and tried to brush them off our bodies. It seemed a bit strange to me that while I was seeing the bugs try to consume us and I attempting to get rid of this swarm of disgusting pests, my brother was sound asleep like a baby. I thought I must be dreaming then, however apparently not. I guess I had moved the bed just enough that I woke up my little brother who was asleep for him to notice what I was doing and he too screams bloody murder and tries to brush them aside as well.

A couple of seconds after he had just woken up, it all stops! What the fuck just happened bro? To this day I have not slightest idea. Could have been a ghost was trying to scare the living shit out of us to move out but who knows. It obviously didn't work because we've stayed for awhile.

So yes it may seem that lately I have had this reoccurring dream of my brother and I being engulfed by this creepy swarm. Oh my body just cringes just thinking about it. Anyways, it still puzzles me why all this went down these past couple of days. Don't get me wrong I don't mind dreaming of my favorite musicians and Ay dios mio they're extremely comely men but come on really? The fuck?! I don't want to dream about them now. I think I irritate the fuck out of them you know. I want to dream about what's going to happen to me...well at least what's going to happen in the very near future like tomorrow or something. You know what I mean? I tell you it can be frustrating at times guys. I can never win at this shit.



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Predictions

Oh my fucking god, I'm so mad at myself right now! About a month or so ago I had a dream that I was at a grocery store. I was just walking up and down each aisle to shop for whatever caught my eye, right. I'm not sure how long I was there but I did seem a bit bored and I had a few items in the hand basket already. Then all of a sudden I see myself starting to stalk the shelves with these white looking boxes. I'm just there for a cool minute, then something tells me to look at them and I see a familiar figurine I hadn't seen for a while. It's yellow with a brown cowboy hat, boots, gloves and a blue handkerchief wrapped around its neck. They were freakin' boxes of Twinkies! I remember specifically telling myself, 'Oh wow they're back'. Crazy right, I know who would have thought...

So I found out yesterday that they Are going to come back sometime this year. Yes Twinkies are making a come back! What irks me is that I didn't write it down on here for you guys to see. Then I could have been like you see guys, I'm not that crazy my premonitions/dreams and predictions Do come true!

Since we're on the topic of predictions, I know I'm not the only one who has had a dream about this but I believe something is going to happen to the white house. Am not sure what exactly happens or what it is but all I saw in my dream, was that something happened to it. It was enough for to cause some concern and to show up on the news. I'm hoping no one gets hurt though. So if something big does happen to it, I can be at rest and say 'You see you guys, I saw it coming. I was right'. Laugh out loud, hey someone has to stroke my ego why not be me you know. I'm just glad I finally got this off my chest.



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Strange Occurrences

Wow! I'm not going to lie but these past couple of days have been real hard. Found out so much about people that I wouldn't have expected. This is unnecessary stress in my life that I don't need. All this is do to fucking mercury retrograde!

A few rules to follow and know during mercury retrograde is to, One, Not to buy any electrical items! You will find yourself that most of the electricals will be disarrayed if you do, so to evade any problems do buy them a week before or after retrograde.

Two, under any circumstance Do not get into a relationship. If you do, as quickly as it started it'll end just as fast and you'll more then likely have thee worst heartache. I've heard many stories of people getting together around this time and it has always ended badly. It's a rarity that it will last but it has been done.

Three, If you're in a relationship before mercury retrograde and it turns sour during retrograde, and you guys break up. Don't worry too much. People who usually break up around this time end up getting back together and usually as if nothing had happened.

Four, Someone from your past will come back into your life. Whether it's an old flame, friend, co-worker or someone you lost contact with awhile back, they will somehow make their way back into your life. This is to be expected, it's inevitable you can say...

And as always, there's is a lesson to be learnt. Hence why there is soo much chaos around this time. However you will truly know what that lesson is when it ends.

These are just a few of the basics that you'll need to know. Check out Astrology Zone and Mercury Retrograde for more info. Also check out this article about Relationships & Love.

Like I said, this has been one of the toughest retrogrades I have encountered by far. Some people who I would talk to just about on a daily basis, has completely stop talking to me right when retrograde started. I do not know why but they have. Frankly, I know they'll come back and hit me up as if nothing had happened. That's what usually happens during this trying time.

Oh and how can I forget?! Someone from my past has come back. That's not good! The name that I pegged him is, Satan. He's a horrible man that has walked on the face of  the earth. Thought he'd choke on a dick and die already but hasn't. He's come back with a fucking tenacious vendetta and for sure has plans to raise havoc on me and other people that are involved. I'm just praying to the universe that it's short lived. Now I have to hit him where it hurts and fast. I've got to sage the fuck out of my room and do a freezer spell, so that he doesn't affect me and he will not! So mote it be.

Also, I had a freakin' scary out of body experience/dream last night. It was definitely intense. For some reason I tend to see myself sleeping when I have these horrendous experiences happen to me. It's like something holds me back from exploring the dream world and I'm stuck in my room, outside of my body just floating on the air. Anyway, I see that I'm sleeping on my stomach then all of a sudden I feel a weight on my back and it pins me down to my bed so that I don't move at all. Then I feel many pairs of hands pinning and pulling the rest of my body down so that I do not move at all. I try to say a prayer but I'm a bit disoriented and something or someone is preventing me from saying it too. I don't know how I muster up the strength but I do and I finish the prayer, I then envisioned I was being surrounded by a bright beam of light and I called on the Arch Angels and my deceased loved ones to help intervene on the situation. Which they did in retrospect because as soon as I did that, I felt the weight and hands on my body slowly but surely diminish.

When I woke up from this, one of my arms was numb & in pain and I couldn't move it at all. I must have slept on it wrong or something but for me to "dream" of something so horrific as this, something is up. The dream had only been about an hour or so from when I fell asleep. It seemed like an eternity had passed. I then quickly sage my entire room from top to bottom, lite candles with water surrounding it and then did a protection spell for myself and loved ones and finally went back to sleep. Later on that morning I again woke up with the same numbness and pain in my arm because I had slept on it wrong yet I had no 'nightmare'? It was as if nothing went down last night. What the fuck is going on dude. This is too much to be a coincidence! Something was totally after me but failed. Don't fuck with the meek, we have strong wills. I will prevail!



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Random Rant: Mercury Retrograde

I'm a firm believer in that throughout our lifetime we learn lessons, whether good or bad. There is nothing farther from the truth when I say that we ALL will learn something of some sorts when Mercury is in Retrograde! Mercury goes into retrograde 3 times a year for about a month more or less. And guess what?! We just went into retrograde on February 23 and will end on March 17. It came a little early this year too, which is a bit weird to me but whatever.

I don't know what it is but lately I've been having the feeling of helplessness. I'm wondering if it would be a spirit in my house trying to manifest its emotions onto me or just maybe I'm feeling one of my close relatives' or friend's emotion. Ugh, it's irritating thee fuck out of me since I cannot for the life of me, pinpoint where it is coming from. Usually shit "just happens to fall on my lap", so they say but nothing has turned up yet. Damnit!

I wonder if this has to do with a lesson I must learn this season. I have been a bit distant with some of my family and friends. Can't help it though, it just seems like I'm always bothering them or that it's usually just me putting in all effort to say 'Hi' and see how they're doing. Dude it gets fucking tiring being the one who has to initiate a damn conversation with someone who says they care, can you blame me? Yes I know we are all very busy with our lives Neppah Tihs, shit happens mang. It's just that it'll be nice for a change to have the effort reciprocated every once in a while you know. To feel like someone out there does care about you....So if you don't hear from me in a cool minute, you know why. I've just been Real busy with a little situation and do not bother me....that's called life!

 

 

(Lilac- Pre-Retrograde, Blue- Retrograde, Purple- Post Retrograde)



 

Ugh just one of them, think out loud random rants. Man I seriously need some sleep, I'm just being fickle...Goodnight Everybody!



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Insentient

(William, Leslie, Kimberly, James)

 





Over the weekend I did an interview with the very talented Leslie from Insentient. They played  a benefit show for Adrian Mejia from Metal WarZone at The Norwalk Moose Lodge in Whittier, CA. They played along with Zombie Eat Horse, Mutants of War, Death Inquisition, Syrebris and Nihilitus. It was a pleasure to hang out and talk with her a bit about their new album as well as about the future plans of Insentient before the show on Feb. 22nd, 2013. Check out the video! \,,/,





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Sidenote: Dez & Mike...

Wow, it's official guys! I have pretty much dreamt about every guy in DevilDriver. I know right so soon, it's fuckin' tripping me out! It was a short and sweet "dream". I'm starting to wonder if it was a premonition because I was half asleep when it happened. It's good news tho, no one got injured or anything. Again, this could have easily been a premonition, it was blurry and was a bit hard to understand what exactly they were talking about...

(Dez, Mike)

In this dream it was just Dez and Mike. They were lounging around in what seemed to be a hotel room. It was a small room with white walls, two twin beds and some wooden chairs right next to them. Dez was sitting in the one of the chairs watching TV and Mike was sitting on the bed with his feet up on either the wall or another chair, I couldn't really tell. They both did seem like they were antsy. They were talking about a recent project they both had done together. When all of a sudden a certain announcement of something came on the TV and caught both, Dez and Mike's attention.

Apparently whatever project these two were working on,  just went mainstream and it was getting alot of PR, more then what they usually get. They were talking about it, on how it took forever to get it out but that it was well worth it. Much of the conversation was inaudible to me. But you get the picture. They worked hard like always and are reaping in all the glory.

Could this actually happen to these guys? Who knows, only time will tell. They're a bunch of talented men and are more than deserving of what they do for their craft! I wish nothing but the best for them and I do hope their music does go mainstream. The public will benefit for sure!   \,,/, ^_^


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DevilDriver

 

(John, Chris, Dez, Jeff, Mike)

 



Wow, I know DevilDriver is one of my favorite bands and all but, why am I dreaming about them so fuckin' much?! In this instance, not good I suppose. Seriously something big is going to happen to some of these guys, I just don't know what exactly. This time I had a dream about Jeff, the other guitarist from DevilDriver. He's a fuckin fox too but in this dream I didn't do anything with him (shucks)....Happy Birthday Jeff & Mike! (& Me!)

I had just woken up and I heard some loud commotion outside. I look through my window and see a large group of people standing in front of my neighbor's house. I notice that alot of them were dressed in white clothing. Then I see my neighbor pull up the driveway and I see that he has a passenger. It so happens to be that Jeff was with him. Oh my god, how the hell does Jeff know my neighbor? I know he himself is in the entertainment industry too but wow, how and where did they meet? I need to know! So I change my clothes as fast as I can and head my out to where everyone was at and see what was going on.

As I make way through the crowd to talk to my neighbor, I notice that Jeff saw me coming his way and started to head my way. I was a bit caught off guard at the fact that he kind of went out of this way to say Hi and talk to me for a bit. (For the times that I did get the chance to meet and hangout with him in real life, yes he is a cool and down to earth dude but for me he did seem a little cold when we were hanging out.)

I don't remember what exactly we talked about however I was just in awe of spending time and getting to know him better. Then he introduces me to his girlfriend. She's really beautiful and petite with long medium brown hair and eyes. There happened to be a beam of light around her and the people that were there. Kind of like your guardian angels in a sense. I couldn't look at her for a long time because she would hurt my eyes, in a good way. I then ask her on why they were all here in the first place. She said they're here for a funeral that they were going to attended.

At first I was dumbfounded because everyone in the crowd seemed like they were pretty happy about something and they were also dressed in white. Jeff's girlfriend then proceeds to say that they are celebrating the person's life rather then on being cumbersome and grieving for the loss of the loved one. I thought it was noble of them to honor the decease's wishes. She then invites me to go along with her, Jeff and my neighbor to the funeral. They were going to walk to the place of service since it was so close that there was really no need for the transportation.

We get going, and make our way to the end of the driveway and this is where my dream ends. It was pretty cool to dream of someone who I truly admire them for their creativity and musicianship. He touches the guitar and it just plays sweet nothings. Though it does trip me out that it seems like whenever I see him, whether it'd be a concert or an event I seem to bother him a bit, it could just be me but who knows....All that matters is that the fame and fortune didn't go to his head. I'm glad for that.


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Sweet Dreams are made of these...

This could have possibly been one of the BEST dreams I've had in a while, lol. I'm pretty sure there is alot more meaning and significance in the dream. I'm hoping that nothing bad happens to the people I dreamt about and that it was merely just a Déjà vu/Premonition dream, just waiting to happen in real life. Ironically I dreamt this morning of the so called Mayan apocalypse, but here's what I dreamt...

I had left a concert early and I was hungry. So I go to a restaurant in the area that kind of resembles Torrance, Ca. However it was a bit run down and kind of ghetto looking. It was dirty and there was trash everywhere you walked. The place I believe it was a Paco's Tacos or something of the like, it was definitely an Americanized Mexican food restaurant. As I went in, it was really busy and noisy. Some parts of this dream are pretty vague but I noticed that one of the cashiers was my friend Mario. I guess he didn't recognize me when I ordered something to drink. The drink was more ice then anything so I left there pretty irritated and mad. As I walk downhill to the parking lot to look for my car, I see a group of men who were there just hassling people whoever would walk by them and were just being loud and obnoxious.

So I try to ignore them by walking fast to my car. As I'm walking to my car the guys notice that I'm by myself and they follow me to my car, they open the door and try to get in. Oh my god the horror I felt, I thought I was going to be kidnapped and maybe even killed as they attempted to get into the car. But to my avail these cholas, gangster looking type chicks get in front of me and helped me stop these guys from hurting my car and I. Somehow they distract them, we run into one of the chicks SUV, I barely made it to the car and we make a clean getaway. The girl drove off fast enough so that the guys didn't get a chance to get into their cars and follow us.

We come to a stop at a light, and I see that we were safe so I tell the girl that was driving to let me out. She unlocks the car and I hop over the girl that was next to me. As I'm about to get of the car, there's a lane next to us that's going to make a left turn. It just so happens that while I'm attempting to run across to the sidewalk, a car that was going to turn decides to make a U-turn right in front of me. in the middle of the damn lane!  It did scare me a little but I was fine. It's a big street that I had to run across to. As I run I notice this white little Honda Civic just coming straight at me. I almost got hit, but luckily I ran fast enough to the parking lot there that nothing was done. Then as I'm walking back to get my car back, the Civic pulls right in front of me. It's bad enough that this girl who was driving the car almost runs me over but now shes follows me. What is wrong with this chick?! She rolls down passenger window and starts to holler at me. Lo and behold it's one of my good girlfriends. She opens the door and says get in. She said she had seen me get out of the SUV and wanted to say hi & go get something to eat. We decide to go to a restaurant that we've been wanting to try, which ironically was just a little bit further down the block.

It was an Italian cafe that turned into a lounge/bar at night. Towards the door about two tables in, there happens to be some menus there so we sit down and decide what to order. We're there for awhile just looking at the menus. I see that the waitress was at the bar, cleaning and preparing some drinks. So I go over to where she was, menu in hand and sit right in front of her where she can see me. Apparently this place was known for their pizza, so I remember asking her if they sell pizzas by the slice. Which they don't to my disappointment, since we wanted to try different pizza flavors. As I continue to look at the menu to see what my friend and I should eat, I hear some guys come sit next to me and ask the waitress a couple of questions as well.

While one of the guys was talking to the waitress, all of a sudden I feel a hand go around my waist and stays firmly there. Normally I would have said something and possibly bash the person in the face but for some reason I was indifferent. I just let the guy leave his hand on my waist. As long as it didn't go any lower he was in the clear. It must have been there for a cool minute. When all this was happening I didn't bother to even look at the guy. I couldn't tell you if the guy was White, Black, Latino, let alone to see if he was at least cute or what have you. The hand had a somewhat familiar and strong male feel to it, if that makes any sense but in all I just continued looking at the menu. Then all of a sudden I see a head pull my face towards him and felt a pair of soft, tender lips against mine. This guy was a good kisser, I'll give him that. Then the person who kissed me, whispered and laughed the word "DevilDriver" right after it.

What the hell right, why would this person whisper that out of all things? Well it's because it WAS one of the guitarists from DevilDriver, Mr. Mike Spreitzer! Dear god that man is a fucking fox. The things I'd do, Mmm....Seriously, Mike = pulchritudinous man, hands down. Sorry got carried away, anyways....

(Mike, John)



He was there with the drummer, John. They were there just grabbing a few drinks, which they were already drunk and a bite to eat. He noticed that I was minding my own business and decided to "play" with me a little since he himself was bored. After talking to him and John for a bit, I got a feeling he was also trying to prove a point of some sorts to John. Along the lines of if he said jump, and was anticipating for me to say how high. Which by the way I didn't, I clearly said Fuck you. I did also say he's all bark and no bite and that dick comes to me. I don't mean to be presumptuous or anything but that's how I am. I have no filter, I'll tell you what's on my mind! I'm not too sure what else I may have said to him, I just got up after what I had to say and left him there as if nothing had happened.

I know he was dumbfounded and taken aback that I wasn't going crazy all over him when he gave me the time of day, that's just not me. He just kept staring at me while I was leaving him and as I went back to the table with my friend. The whole night I felt a pair of eyes just looking at the back of my neck. My friend took notice of Mike plainly just staring at me and it started to freak her out....

This is where the dream ends, I not exactly too sure of what happened next as because it is all fuzzy to me now looking back on it.

I know you're probably think that this dream is just a fantasy dream. Normally that would be true however I have been a fan of DevilDriver for a very long time now, I've met these guys many times and hung out with them, and I haven't had a dream about them. So for me to dream about someone or something even after it's been around me quite awhile, that's like a red flag for me saying something is going to happen. Whether if it's good or bad, all I know is that it has to do with Mike and John.


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Sidenote.

Food for thought:

I'M A MAYAN APOCALYPSE SURVIVOR!!

 

Yee buddy like I said I'm a Mayan Apocalypse survivor, pretty funny right....

Oh and Happy New Year to everyone! ;-) 

Wow, alot has happened since my last post. One thing I can and will say is that I had another déjà vu moment on Christmas (I know right, out of All days of the freakin' year...). Can't help that I'm so sensitive during holidays. It was the morning, I had just gotten out of work and I was bored so I started playing on my brothers word search booklet that he had in the office. I'm just sitting there thinking real hard and trying to look up these words when all of a sudden it hits me I've seen this before, the words that is. The word arrangement looked real familiar even tho it was a brand new book and that I have never seen it before until that day. It was definitely a trippy feeling.

Strange I know, but what else can I tell you?! I've noticed lately at least for 2012, that these déjà vu moments primarily have happened around christian/catholic holidays. The last one that I can remember was when I got one on Easter. Hmm, I wondering if this is a sign for something. For instance, to finally concentrate and write my book. Anyways who knows only time will tell.

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